shortnin pie

I’ve been in such a long-running good mood.

I just think I should log it, I suppose.  I’m happy with each day that passes– it’s really, really great.   I guess you don’t feel like griping on an internet journal when you’re as pleasant feeling as I have been, haha.  I’m just so happy, and I don’t worry too much about anything.  You’d think I might be more ’stressed’ or moody with the advent of a relationship, especially one that currently has a limitation that seems to make a lot of people go mad or give up,  but that’s not happening at all, so much the opposite it seems like other people have been going about it all wrong.   I really don’t get where the hang-ups and hand-wringing goes on with someone being a distance away, especially these days.  It’s so easy to be in contact with a person, modern technology and all, that it hardly seems like a big deal.  Imagine all the people throughout history who maintained or formed relationships strictly through sending letters every time they were able, months or so in-between.  What could I possibly have to complain about?  I guess it would be different if you hadn’t really gotten the chance to form a background of communication… but I don’t know, it doesn’t seem even a tiny bit awkward or hard to me, it is just a matter of patience and waiting, and that is hardly something that can’t be lived with.  People, generations, countries, wait eons for so many trivial things, so I can definitely wait to see someone wonderful whenever the chance is given.  I hope, and think, he sees it similarly.

Other than that, I’m still just trying to find another crummy job to do some uninspired toiling at.  I had an interview a few days ago, at a home goods sort of store–I think I did well, but it will be a few days until I hear back anything at all.  If I do get a job soon, I’ll probably have an increased amount of things to complain about.

One place I applied at, some stupid Local Pizza Restaurant, still has their “Now Hiring” sign up, and it’s been up now for about a month, maybe?  At least?  Wow, since a few days after Christmas, now that I think about it.    What sort of glass slipper arrangement do they expect in there, someone to come in with years of experience in their specific restaurant that they just didn’t know about?  A long-lost relative, an heir?   They’re not going to get much better than what they get within the first month, I’m just assuming, statistically.

Whatever, I can’t wait until my t-a-a-a-x  r-e-e-e-t-u-u-u-r-n is deposited.  It will be hard, but I think I’m going to try my best to just preserve it.   If I get a job soon, it will definitely be easier–so, let’s hope I can work for a few uh, weeks or something, at least, haha.

this was worth downloading
this wasn’t even worth the ten dollars, but i think i would weep openly, mourn like some kind of bloaty-headed irish midwife if i had paid the original price
(seriously”"IRL”" it looks like something an electrician would make for his wife in the 1920s out of his old blazer and scraps of scorched denim and some girl has the nerve to say the sleeves are too long in the reviews, well girl in the reviews JUST LOOK AT MY ARMS they are normal length arms and yet here they are, not fully sleeved ]:0( )
alright am i just going to have to accept this appliqued flower thing for the rest of my life orrrrr
okay then i guess i’ll just work on coming to an understanding about this brave new world

catchamey breath

Is it just me or is Anthropologie almost exclusively stocking ugly stuff now?  Or did I just not notice until now?

There is no way I wanted so much stuff from there last holiday season (which I did) if this was the sort of thing I was seeing:
To be fair, I hate sweater coats. Seriously, they just look like the crappy ‘dusters’ that were a big hit in my middle school.  I had one, it was the ugliest thing.  Other girls had them, they were the ugliest things.  No one looks better in a sweater coat than they would in any other kind of coat.  Every single other type of coat looks better than that, even big, puffy, North Face shit from the 90s.  Remember, featured heavily in any video with P. Diddy?  Or a trash bag.  I really, really hate ’sweater coats’.  I like sweaters, I like coats–but they are two good things that just look frumpy together.  Prove me wrong!  Show me a halfway decent sweater/coat hybrid.   Worst of all, I don’t even think they’re that warm.

This is over 100 dollars. I think I saw 100 variations on this at Marshall’s, or TJ Maxx, or anywhere on Earth.  Anthropologie has always been over-priced, but this year it just seems insane.  I wouldn’t buy a zipper cardigan for so much as 20 dollars, but I guess I might wear one for free–and I like cardigans.  That just looks like a shapeless mess with zippers.  At the very least they should have these things with actual human beings in them, because I’d love to see what benefit the ~~side zippers~~ have.  It looks like it would make it more drapey, ‘~~~!romantic!~~~~’ as is the style of Anthro, but the zippers would pretty much ruin the feminine softness, right?  Am I dead wrong?  I kind of feel like this one I could be wrong about; but I’d need to see it on a person, at least.

Over 100 dollars worth of corduroy, really? I also hate corduroy.  If I wanted this skirt, well, my mother and her old shit is just a phone call away.

At first I thought this was ugly, but it just grew on me in the last 30 seconds. It could actually be cute.  I’m not sure I’d pull it off personally, but if I was a twee-50s type I think I’d really like this.  Still though, the price–what ~!>~>!  Felt flower appliques on a cute cardigan sounds like something a person might be able to just do at home if they were so inclined.  If it was just say, 50 dollars, I’d want to at least try it on, see if I could handle all the kitsch.

This, I love. Oh, of course–300.

Suddenly, everything is back to being qt.  I guess that sweater dress really threw me to the ground.   wait spoke 2222 soon

Alright, I guess its about 75/25 with the favor going to pretty cute/acceptable on others stuff–it just seems like when I first found them I was enamored of every single thing.

ps what is the deal with 3/4 and quarter sleeves in coats?    Maybe I’m not old fashioned enough, but I don’t really want to have to wear gloves in order to keep all of my arm-length warm.  I’m lazy.  I also do not like belted-in cardigans.  I’m fussy!  Layering sort of annoys me, just because I don’t think I get it.  The neckline always throws me off my game.
Great now there is something in my eyeeee urrrhhhh sorry anthropologie i wont blog bad about you n e more ;___(

birthday tomorrow
im gonna drink something ~~adult~~ at a restaurant with my grandparents and my dad , and i am genuinely excited about this.  i am basing my dinnerdecision on the availability of mixed drinks and whether or not they have creme brulee.  i’m also thinking about going to the liquor store early in the morning haha

I’m still unemployed, so this really is a great time to pick up a drinking habit i guess loooool

taak vidol

More applications:
-TGI Friday’s.  If only I was excitable enough for them ~~~~~~~~~~s i g h~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
-Rue 21?  It’s near my house, sort of ‘tween’ clothing :retail.
-Need to drop off my Bath and Body Works at the actual, physical location.
-there was one more place, but I don’t even remember.
-A few more restaurants require actual drop-offs of the application, I guess to make sure the applicant doesn’t have a physical issue that they can later claim is the reason they were fired.

I’m hoping someone calls back soon…someone other than McDonald’s.  I think I’d be a pretty good waitress, hostess, what-have-you.  I’m very friendly looking, and I’m pretty much affable, at least.  I also have a perfectly adequate short-term memory and I can stand for hours on end.  If I was any good, at least as a server, I’d make a lot more money than I would in retail–and pretty much everyone I’ve applied with pays more than Walmart did–but I’m not discounting the idea of just going back there.  If I don’t get a call-back soonish, I’ll just go ahead and apply there again. We’ll see~~!~!!   I’m also toying with the idea of just going in full time in short order, for the money.  Then again, I do really enjoy being at home.  The obvious answer is to start off part-time, and if I feel I need more money/I don’t hate the work environment, just move on into full-time.  I know that once they actually take a chance(takeachancetakeatakeachancechance) on hiring me, whatever employer will be happy that they did.  I’m a pretty strong worker and I’m more than capable of handling whatever menial dilemma might beleaguer me in the entry-level field.  I thought about like, a temp agency, data entry, what-have-you…the problem there is location.  I don’t want to have to drive over 15 minutes away to make 10 bucks.  I suppose I would, though.  It just wouldn’t be my first choice.

Right now, anything is my first choice, I want to start sacking away some ca$$$h.  I think it feels so urgent, maybe because I need to prove to myself that I am capable of providing…at least keeping myself alive?    The college rejection was definitely a letdown, I want to be reminded that I am not just some internet-based slug.  Not that there’s anything wrong with that~!~!~!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prosopagnosia

that is pretty cool

pleureppermint candy

So I’ve applied at K-Mart, Applebee’s, and McDonald’s.  Are those both possessive names?  Whateveeer.  I didn’t want to work with food, but now it’s just more important that I earn something.

I feel sooo much lonelier now than I did when I was really, actually, always alone.   I didn’t care at all then, but now it seems really depressing to be driving in an empty car. I guess that’s what it is like when you actually want someone around, but circumstance doesn’t really allow for it.   At least not easily.  It is a bit sad for now, but nice–it seems so wonderful, but it won’t be without effort–((//begin lame//)) nothing worth having ever is, I suppose.  I’m optimistic, dream-doe-eyed–but I’m also trying to be rational.   I guess that’s probably everyone all the time, right?

I need money, and  I’m definitely going to try to save more this time around, rather than just throw it around like it’s so much Cristal.  Which I’ll be able to drink in less than a month, but I probably won’t.  Don’t worry, it is the thought that counts, drinking laws.

I should start working on t’givin’ p(ie)((S)), or else I’ll just think myself into …something other than baking pies, which is what I should be doing.  Hopefully I’ll get a call back from one of those places soonish, but not …tomorrow, for instance.  Or directly on my birthday.  Before or after is fine ))in case ur googlin me, future employers((

traitor trotter

Shaaaaaaaxzzzzzzz

Guess who didn’t get accepted into state college?

This guy!  ((i mean myself))

This sucks like heck, but I guess it is freeing as well, in a way.  I don’t have to wait around and see if “”"”college”"”" will accept me anymore.  I could go to a community college for a year, and be “guaranteed” admission, but I’m also free to move out-of-state–go to a different community college–and start at THAT state’s university within a few years–hopefully as a resident so tuition is cheaper.  I’ll look into it, I guess.

Or, I could finally bite the promised fall-back bit and just start cosmetology school.   I could do that anywhere, too.  For now, I’ll just worry about getting a job and saving a bit of money.  It bothers me that I wasn’t accepted into school, but it isn’t exactly shocking; my grades in high school were absolutely disgusting.   A lot of people studied, a lot of people worked really hard, and all that paid off for them–as well it should.  I made my own bed, so I can’t be too angry.

So, young people who might at a later date be reading this:
If you’re worried about getting into college, really concentrate on your actual, physical grades.  I hoped an ephemeral ’smart’ thing would pheromone off of my application, and that my SATs meant…anything.  They might mean something in a small way, but my SAT scores were in the top 20 percent nationally and even higher state-wise–and yet I’m still not in college.  It’s all about high school and whether you gave a shit during it or not.   I didn’t, and now I have to wonder what I’m going to do for the next forever.  It’s better to have initiative and drive than it is to just be raw ‘clever’, obviously.  Lots of clever people in this world, and a lot of them just snark to themselves about customers at their retail job.  Maybe that will be me, maybe not.  I can live with any outcome, really.

assured corrector

Alright, so what’s the catch when it comes to “”"”premium denim”"”"” on Ebay?  It’s all so much cheaper, the sellers (by and large) do a lot of business and get a lot of ‘positive feedback’, but I know that when it comes to “Dunks” (a popular style of shoe as done by Nike) a lot of people sell counterfeits on Ebay–but still get positive reviews.   Either from people who don’t know, or people who willingly bought reproduction shoes–which I’m not opposed to–but I wouldn’t want to be caught wearing something fake if I wasn’t well aware.  It would just be embarrassing to be called out, especially if I was under the impression that it was legitimate.

Anyway,  it just seems like the other shoe should drop because they are much cheaper than what I just paid at Nordstrom. ;_(  It doesn’t matter much anyway, I don’t have the expendable income of someone with a job.  That will change though, because I need a job.  Businesses are hiring for holidays, but unfortunately there isn’t many places that hire period around here.  I’m sure I’ll find something, though.  I need new stuff.

My dad brought up moving again.  I wish I could get excited about that specifically, but you can never be sure of anything until you’re just living in another place, or something.

Other than that, I’m in a super good mood.  :0)

annotation : hurrah

:0) :0) :0)
lamewad 2: still lamin’

:0) :0)

i’m so lame

loooooooool

bump death

soupy sales
my grandmother
and now maybe morrissey
What a crummy week!
~really a terrible year, 2bh w/o lol

If anyone is interested in making a student documentary about awkward times, get in contact with me, because new science is coming in suggesting that I will be having the most awkward time in history for the next few days.

I could not even begin to beguine how over-the-top awkward this is all going to be.  Honestly, recoiling-style uncomfortable.  If there is one trait each and every person I spend time with shares, it is the ability to turn every situation into stony silence or just screams.  One thousand screams, two thousand saucer eyes.  I’m glad I can shirk pretty well.

fragile fings

gonna see the heck out of this movie

it looks so wonderfully overwrought AND MONIQUE ARE YOU YANKING MY CHAIN

wait a minute, wait a minute
Mariah Carey too?  and then Lenny Kravitz, inexplicably?  awesome awesome awesome

this is going to be 2 awesome 2 furious , but it’s 2 bad that it will probably only be shown in 2 theatres in 2 states